J8o8h8n:
I feel like a part of what has me going back and forth with gaining is the lack of encouragement. I feel like I'll have good stuffing days, but when I don't see rapid results and I'm not getting encouragement to keep going, I end up backing off on gaining before I can really go all in.
Skill issue.
This is a self created problem. You're so focused on the gains that you are not having fun. I've read many of your posts. You put your body through hell, but you aren't a masochist. No wonder you're struggling.
